so.. i used to have a crush on this coll mate..
we are good friends now, miles apart..
he doesnt need to know the past.. hah.

well. that aside.
but right after i finally let go of that strong feeling of mine.. i told myself never to be so silly again.
because the process and progress of developing this kind of 'relationship', tho is sweet..
it's bloody tiring as well.
i have fallen head over heels, quietly for about a year and a half.
and i have taken about half a year to let go.
hah.

and then.. guess what..
right after that.. half a year later (not even a year!)
i have found myself going through the same thing again!
fallen for a guy.. silently.. unknowingly.. (yeah rite.. pretty much whole world knows except for the guy himself XD)
oh gosh.. how silly is this!

but i couldnt help it! (of course i'm going to say this.. what else is there left for me as an excuse rite!)
i fall for his charm, his voice, his height, his words, his smell.. his everything.
i think of him, his shirt colors, his toll pass, his stuff in his car.. his everything.
i wonder of his dogs, his hobby, his favorites.. his every single little thing.
and oh gosh.
this is definitely not good.
because it's been like this for a little more than half a year.
oh gosh.
and the history repeats?!

damn it.
and now dearie friend is asking me to make a move.
what the..
this would definitely be something new to me.. hah.

and the ramblings end for the day